Monday, February 27, 2006
we are in talking terms now. but, i cant help but feel a tinge of sadness everytime we are communicating. no, not face to face..but via 'cyber world'. i dunnoe, maybe i'm just being emotional. trying my best to adjust and adapting to changes and im tryin my best to tell myself that 'hey..the feeling is no longer there'..but the more i try myself to do just as that..i find that it was even more difficult to account for.
yes, i do miss him..terribly terrible. and yes..i do know that i can do nothing about it. but..im contented. at least he wants us to be in talking terms again..thoe not physically. seriosly, i dont blame him for causing the hurt. maybe he had his own reasons for doing so..
then again, till now i still do not noe why.
he did say that he miss me when i wasnt in office for the last 3 days. my heart lights up, upon seeing those words..then again, i've got a feeling that the aura's somewhat rather...different. i can never bring us back to where we use to be. its even more impossible now, come to think about it. we are not even close anymore. we don't talk nor smile when we walk past each other..its just simply 'cyber world'. well yes, he still calls me 'dearie' and me, 'atok'..but sigh....we passed of more as dumbwits rather than close koliks.
i do not know how long more its gonna last like this.
notty-me @ 12:27:00 PM :: in love..
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