Tuesday, February 07, 2006
i had a good long talk with my bestfriend yesterday. nope, not over the phone. but via messenger and email. i understand that she is busy and overcomed with a very tight schedule on hand. hearing me over messenger was good enuff for me. at least she is still there when i needed a shoulder to cry on and a lake to pour my feelings out.
i was like a lost soul this past 1 month. not knowing what i want and not knowing what i was looking for. i tried to reach out but no one is there to hear my cries. im sad. dissapointed with myself...dissapointed with fate. why have it got to be so cruel? why did fate showed me the path i should not be stepping into? why does it hurt so much? i cant bear this pain. i cant bear the pain ive inflicted on myself. i cant take this. why? why? god hear me out..listen to me....
he left without a word. without any reason. i know its just a feeling with no feelings at all. it was never meant to be..and everything is impossible. yet why that it hurt that bad? why does it so bad that my heart skip one beat the moment i see you? i tried to run, i tried to hide..i wanna stay away. but inside me, i wanna be near you. i miss you badly. i long for you. but no, NO!! this is wrong. i should not and can never feel like this for you ever again. its just wrong. wrong to begin with. but i can't help it...i just cant.
but wait..HE loves you more than anyone else. HE is your heart and soul remember? at least you still have HIM who will always be there for you..to hold you close, to love you. treasure HIM will you..
goodbye my past..
i love you darling...and forever i will be..
notty-me @ 7:48:00 PM :: in love..
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