Saturday, December 16, 2006
bleh..
notty-me @ 4:35:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
we've drifted far apart from each other.
never will both of us look at each other the same way ever again..
goodbye 'you'..i wish you the best of luck in your future endeavous.goodbye my past..don't ever come back.
goodbye..
notty-me @ 1:11:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
i do not understand why some people chose to blabber about their past at least a few times in a few months while talking about their daily life..i mean, what impact does it have to your daily life. talking and remembering the past..how relevant was the impact truly?
sigh..i do not why but it is affecting me in a way. i noe, i noe..its her life, its her past. but noeing that her past relates to my present..its made me go thru an uneccessary breakdown. i just hates it when she have to mention ex-bfrens, spend 5 years of my life with the same guy and ya da ya da ya da wat the fuck. for goodness sake, drop it will you. your married for goodness sake and your pregnant with your present's kid. not ur fucking past..wassup with you having to mention ur past in almost most of your entries??? fuck fuck fuck....
u still can't forget your past don't you? fuck...
notty-me @ 6:52:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Monday, March 27, 2006
i've never been to Labrador Park. Or at least i've been to, but never realy explored the park. Cos i was usually there when night's fall and when its too dark to do anything else, with concerns due to the facts that i'm a blardy scare-dy cat.
finally..yesterday evening, i managed to do a bit of park exploring. ok, again..not reali that evening..its more to like end of evening, coming to night fall..hehe. but thank god i wasnt the scary scary me. so we did went up to the park hill and boi was i surprised to find out that there is an outdoor dining area somewhere near the secret tunnel. it looks kinda cool and yes, its crowded with food go-ers. we went further up the park and realised that are people up there, couples, joggers..u name it. yes yes..i was not even close to scared..heee heee. we continued with our quest in exploring, reading artifacts after artifacts to gain knowledge of what reali happened back then..until we saw a nice look-out area which is facing the sea. the view was breath-taking and superbly magnificient. i was flabbergasted at the sight of it. beautiful and i realy felt like on top of the world. its the best look-out area to get the whole view of the sea. hmmm, no wonders army back then used this park as a look-out area for their enemies. you can reali reali see what's coming further north, east and west.
well, i dint reali get to explore the whole park thoe..cos the night is fast approaching and i was extremely exhausted with the whole lot of stairs climbing (was at the top of mt faber to watch the sunset). but one thing for sure...i will be back..(in the late afternoon of cos!!) to do more of Labrador Park exploration.
till then..cheerios!!
notty-me @ 6:35:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Friday, March 24, 2006
was listening to the song
'pelita dia bawah purnama' by the singer Erema, when i was sudenli reminded of him. the one who used to be in my life but was never forever to stay. the feeling's gone, yet the memories will stay as a part of me.
i will never forget the great times we had together. even thoe, its just a short period of time..i can dare say that the impact he's given me, is that deep..
but rest assured..im glad that everything's gone by now.
jus like the wind..
got this from an aquaintance..sadly..its true..but a total different meaning when u judge it from a different view.
When someone is in your life for a REASON. . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally,or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.
thank you, u..for showing me what patience is all about. i am a very happy girl now..
a very very happy girl indeed.
notty-me @ 4:34:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
it has been a huge roller coaster ride for me and practically now, i still cant say that im back on track. one minute i am sad, the other im happy..u noe, having these mix feelings and all, are really not helping me that much. there are just too many to account for. in life, work and relationship. my mind is just to tired to accomodate the needs of all.
yet, i have to tell myself each and everyday that i have to stay strong. its all like a game, i cant lose or be defeated. total no no. i m just glad and thank to the almighty for giving me this strength to overcome each and everyday without grieve. at least so, that's how i felt.
im way over him now. thoe i cant deny that i still have that 'thud thud' feeling everytime i bump into him. but i strongly believe that the 'like like' feeling i use to have towards him...is GONE. yeap, no more hurt, no more pain. in actual fact, i got irritated with his childish attitude. every now and then, he never fail to irritate me with his awful words. this time around, i chose not to care..time to grow up mann!!
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im only in love with him. my one and only. he, who is like a backbone to me. without him, i cant see my life as bright anymore. its time that i treasure what i have and not care about others. i love love love love him so much..and only 'The Almighty Allah 'will understand how i truly felt for him. i can just pray for our well-being and that our relationship will blossom into a beautiful sacred garden. i love you my darling..
notty-me @ 6:19:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
Monday, February 27, 2006
we are in talking terms now. but, i cant help but feel a tinge of sadness everytime we are communicating. no, not face to face..but via 'cyber world'. i dunnoe, maybe i'm just being emotional. trying my best to adjust and adapting to changes and im tryin my best to tell myself that 'hey..the feeling is no longer there'..but the more i try myself to do just as that..i find that it was even more difficult to account for.
yes, i do miss him..terribly terrible. and yes..i do know that i can do nothing about it. but..im contented. at least he wants us to be in talking terms again..thoe not physically. seriosly, i dont blame him for causing the hurt. maybe he had his own reasons for doing so..
then again, till now i still do not noe why.
he did say that he miss me when i wasnt in office for the last 3 days. my heart lights up, upon seeing those words..then again, i've got a feeling that the aura's somewhat rather...different. i can never bring us back to where we use to be. its even more impossible now, come to think about it. we are not even close anymore. we don't talk nor smile when we walk past each other..its just simply 'cyber world'. well yes, he still calls me 'dearie' and me, 'atok'..but sigh....we passed of more as dumbwits rather than close koliks.
i do not know how long more its gonna last like this.
notty-me @ 12:27:00 PM :: in love..
_______________________[ Roxy is my life // ]_______
